Sometimes feel like I am ‘special’
like I am supposed to do something important
but probably everyone feels like that
and most of us are not ‘special’
or maybe none of us are.
The world doesn’t need one million
presidents, astronauts, ballet dancers
the world needs one million
subway ‘sandwich artists’
and that is depressing.
Whenever I think of a possible career
I think about how much work it will be
and how it will cut into my social life.
I think about how there are probably one million
kids my age who have wanted to do that since they were ten years old
and how they probably have a better resume than me.
Feel like that ‘follow your heart/dream stuff is great and all
but it can’t work out for everyone
and I don’t know if it can work out for me.